stuff

Cycles of dismal depression, intense happiness, mindless repetition, and finding the new. Am I really so cyclic?
Ive been thinking about a girl i once loved and still love ( in one form or another )
and how she threw me aside a year and a half ago but then we got closer than ever the month after. Now she won't talk to me for an unknown reason. Makes a guy feel pretty bad. Inspired more than half the songs i have ever written, this enigmatic woman. I hate her with a loving hand, but why wont she talk to me? I don't even care about getting a girlfriend or anything, just hurts.... pretty bad too. i hope its not on purpose; that would be a twist in the wound.
Seriously thought about dropping out of school 2 weeks after saying i never want to stop going. I am very confused.

But hey, this is the time my artistic soul thrives. Pain creates art i guess.

yep. yes. yeah. for sure.
its a journal.

although im still drawing, i have been thrust into the world of music, both singing and bass guitar.
i suck at both, but i love em to death.
i put up some songs that i wrote, and they are kind of dark, which i guess fits my art theme well.
ive been gone a while, and i feel i have been neglecting my fellow artists. i plan on being on more often to give feedback probably no one cares about and of course to past stuff no one cares about.
well on to it then!

O,M,GOSH
im in SJSU now
meeting cool people
sexin up the ladies.... lol not really.
hey anyways, people i will soon have some more pics up if anyone actually cares. which i bet most dont. but anywho, my scanner was without a computer for a long time and now i think it has a home maybe.
if any of you douchepickles goes to SJSU than tell me. ( unless you are sam or justin because than its pretty obvious yeah?)
you guys rock